Indigo Dealing With Crisis

As bankruptcy looms, this Indigo child, 24 yr old man, faces the collapse of all his upstanding principles. He will have to think differently henceforth, a daunting perspective. The Osho Zen Tarot deck has some stunning insights. I came accros one that seemed appropos. I quote:

You are not accidental. Existence needs you. Without you something will be missing in existence and nobody can replace it. That's what gives you dignity, that the whole existence will miss you. The stars and sun and moon, the trees and birds and earth - everything in the universe will feel a small place is vacant which cannot be filled by anybody except you.

This gives you a tremendous joy, a fulfillment that you are related to existence, and existence cares for you. Once you are clean and clear, you can see tremendous love falling on you from all dimensions.Osho God is Dead: Now Zen is the Only Living Truth Chapter 1

INDIGO'S REPLY
I am going through some tough times, which I really don't want to be going through. I think my family still thinks I might be a little crazy because my brother called with some fancy labels for me and why I should go see a psychologist, I think they are concerned about the whole spiritual thing. I know by the Law of Attraction I must have attracted all these wrong things that are happening to me, yet by knowing that I feel even more worse because I don't understand why I have attracted all this to me. I really went through allot of hardships the last year, I thought after getting out of the hospital everything would be getting much better. I had a goal from a young age to be a self made millionaire by age 25, well my 25th birthday is July 1st and it looks like I will be celebrating my first bankruptcy. When it comes to business I am trying to get deals done, yet they all seem to be falling apart. I feel myself slipping back into a depression and I don't want to go there again. I want things to be better, I am just tired of my current situations.


WE'VE ALL BEEN THERE!
We've all been in that place of depression. That's because we're focused on the negative causes and thoughts that accompany depression. There is always light at the end of the tunnel. Take charge of your thinking and choose to think about something happy. Negative thinking gets you more depressed... it doesn't help. Positive thinking lets your mind breathe. You wouldn't make a 5 yr old stay in the punishment of constant negative thinking... low self worth, bad me, I'm wrong, I screwed up, I need to be punished. So don't do it to yourself!

MY ANSWER
Congratulations!!!! Your first bankruptcy. Now you are a man!!!

The only thing that is certain is change.... this means your stuck place right now will get unstuck. The depression will change into something else. You have no idea YET how freeing bankruptcy is. I know. we were both raised to honor our debts, etc, etc. Well... things change. Thank god/goddess. I feel if life had gone in the direction I was headed, I'd have missed the best parts....

You are sooooo young; just beginning... and you have an early chance to start over. If you think of this as a graduation from childhood, a rite of passage, you will see it in its truer perspective. Clear away the old cobwebs including self judgment.. that's a biggie. We both know you can. YOu are intelligent. Begin to acknowledge the good things.
You got a huge kick in the ass to move in a spiritual direction. Now you and the universe have cleared the playing field. It's all yours to begin to create what you want. YOu know the drill... what you focus on you get more of. Get through and past the bankruptcy. Go home to get new bearings, or not. Just start over like you were getting out of college. You're throwing off old shoes and clothes and parts of yourself that no longer serve your higher self that just came on line ... you're like the butterfly emerging out of its cocoon... Be tender with yourself, you're still a vulnerable infant in your new self.

Congratulations on your TRUE BIRTHDAY! Celebrate the way of Spirit!

Look at it as 'you had the party' (the visions in the hospital).
Now you have to do the work. (move thru changes of self and all that is and was you).

You are Indigo. Begin!

Love, light and joy to you on your having created a breath of fresh air and a restart to your life!

Indigo in Crisis

Here is another correspondence with the Indigo Kid of earlier blogs. He's frustrated with his personal and global view.
He writes:

Why is God doing everything he or she is doing? I try to look at all the positive in the world, yet all I see is things getting worse. I mean this from a natural aspect, everything seems to be falling apart. I felt awesome and unstoppable when I got out of the hospital, yet now I feel as if I am going into a depression and everything is falling apart, on a global level and a personal level.

My reply:

You are a facet of the Creator.
As a creator, you are doing all these things in concert with all the other Creator Gods.
Let go of needing to have a particular outcome.
Let go of all the shoulds and have tos.
Surrender, don't quit. Surrender and allow.
Say YES to it all.Both dark and light reflect God.

All this is happening because you are greatly loved and stand in the center of the storm of change.
You are a child of change. YOu came in to bear witness to the greatest change this universe has ever seen: the dimensional shift of an entire planet. You are here to help in that shift. Hanging on to your old way of living will not help you in this change. You are creating freedom.

Change your focus and change your life.
You are in charge, none other.
YOu get to choose what you focus on.
Begin focusing on what you prefer, even tho all seems to be crumbling around you. Let it crumble. Allow it to fall away. Let go.
This idea goes against all you have been taught. Let go of the need to rely on old teachings.
Allow yourself to stand and BE in the midst of chaos. Just observe and allow. Let it all fall away or change or disappear and allow the new to appear. It is part of the old paradigm. You will help create the new.

All that you / God are doing is being done FOR you, not TO you.
The pain you experience is not necessary. The pain is your fear as the old forms fall away all around you.
You can be negatively affected only to the degree to let yourself feel fear.
Love is letting go of fear. Let it go. Allow it all.

Begin by loving your fear.