Button Pushing

 

Boy did I get my buttons pushed yesterday. Another awful hair cut was enough to set me off and running. Anger. Injustice. Stupidity. Frustration. Not wanting to make a public scene. Wanting acknowledgment by her of her error and my displeasure. Receiving none.

How petty of me. How human. Then the secondary wounds of her defensive and insulting comments like “It’ll grow out and in a month you’ll like it.” I wanted to scream at her “I have to live through this for a month!

My mind wars with my awareness. It argues this is just a tiny, short lived thing in the sum of my life. This is not life threatening. This is so temporary I’ll probably forget about it.

None of this helps my anger. Why, I ask myself. Do I just want to be angry? Is this just the straw that broke the camel’s back and points to something deeper I’ve not looked at?

In the middle of my writing this I receive an email removing me from a practitioner listing because I did not take a non-required, new, additional course. More button pushing. Clearly something else is going on if a second, ‘injustice’ button is being pushed and I need to get a handle on it. But what? And How?

First, I know consciously there is a gift in this situation. (Like a pony in a roomful of pony manure.) 

I know I’m still in a manure mood because my focus is still manure, not pony! It makes me think consciously, makes me become truly aware and then I know I CAN understand it.

I look inside to get clarity, but it’s a mess inside locked in the emotion of anger.

I look to an external guide: tarot cards. Its wisdom will give me a way back into myself to understand. I begin to get a glimpse, but most is clear as mud. This lets me know I’m still stuck in an emotion that duck tapes over my intuition! Not a good thing.

Back to basics I go: Stay conscious. Know. Keep working at it and allowing the anger. Choose Love.

I do know not to stuff it or pretend it’s not there.  It’s just raw energy.

So I tear the label off that raw energy and it’s just energy.

I ask myself how I want to use the energy. I have choices.

I know unhappy things happen, but indeed it’s the way we respond to them that makes us who we are. I see my highest response: allow, don’t judge and seek the higher path.

Long ago, I was in an amazing space of constant higher vibration, connection and love. It lasted for a very long time. I am realizing that higher vibration place is a wave form. Sometimes we’re there, sometimes we’re not. As life events shift, so do we.  It certainly makes me better appreciate the times I am in that higher space!

So I’m just in allowance of it all. I watch my silly overreactions and allow them. I know I can move back into my feel good space by my intention and practice of all the basics to achieve that feel good space.  So I read, listen to music, laugh, create good times with or without friends, meditate, reflect and constantly choose joy. I do this over and over until I achieve that feel good space.

All those triggers simply reminded me to look deeper, find the metaphor, see what’s really going on. It makes life ultra interesting.

Choosing to hold on to my anger serves the energies of darkness adding to the sum total of discord on this planet. It is clearly Service to Self (which separates and judges).

As I choose Service to Other Selves (which acknowledges others and I are one), I know I am adding to the sum total of Love and Light that heals this planet. Acknowledging this, the choice is easy.

My mood shifts and I see inside and outside much more clearly.

It was just a ‘bad hair day’ and it’s gone now.

Very Bad Hair Day!

I pushed different buttons: love, light and joy.

 

 If you find yourself in a similar low vibration place, push some of your own buttons and let your heartlight out.

Together we are changing the world. We are reflections and magnifiers of the new Light on this planet. Choose.

It is always an option.

New Paradigms of 5th Dimension

One version of a paradigm shift

My intense 22 year connection with Tarot is shifting, dramatically. Traditional Tarot is part of the old 3D (third dimension) paradigm and I’m letting go. We’re moving into 5D. Dragging the old paradigms with us hinders our passage. A new door has opened.

Barrier Pierced

This drastic change began around year 2000. A barrier was pierced and a different energy became available. But like so many changes, when one is in the shift, it is difficult to see it or its outcome. Just ask a caterpillar in his cocoon, soon to be a butterfly. It trusts its DNA driven need to change; without knowing the outcome. We too must trust our light activated, DNA driven transformation.

Signs

The change with Tarot was startling at first; pointing to a Universal metamorphosis. Signs began occurring telling me to release the old way of thinking, of earning income, of doing. More and more difficulties reinforced the urge to change, encouraging me. So many signs from Spirit happened it became laughable. I could have chosen not to listen to this guidance; but my world is linked to Spirit, my best friend; so I listen.

Credit card machine, housing while traveling, Expo booth mates, flight schedules and more each broke down. With that many signs, I paid attention. A last minute Tarot reading caused me to cancel a Chicago trip, even though I was unable to recoup my costs. It feels unnatural when things like this occur; like you’re out on a limb.

But either you trust or you don’t. It’s that simple.

Expo Archetype  

For a few years I’ve known the Expo archetype was ending. Still, Expos are a doorway for some. We are all at differing points in the path. Some find safety in an Expo crowd to begin breaking away from old stranglehold patterns, instead of seeking alone.

What do I do?

I looked at this big shift and saw uncertainty. The safe, old ruts were eroding. Change was happening. I had to let go, allow and trust. I did and I came to a standstill. The old paths seemed closed. This is the scary part. What do I do?  But I’ve been down this path before and I trust my relationship with the unknown.

I wait.

This is a not an easy task. Our old pattern is to do something, fill time, work towards a goal or take action.

I wait.

The hard part is not knowing what’s next, but trusting I’d be shown, eventually.

Breakthrough

I got caught up in studying Tarot yet again, in a new way. Then a breakthrough occurred. I saw a map of this shift in the Tarot; a bridge to 5D and how to make that happen.

In old Tarot readings, people wanted predictions; or to be ‘fixed’; told what to do and how to do it; or to pretend someone else made their decisions so they didn’t have to take the responsibility for them. But my work is about self empowerment. I believe no one needs to be ‘fixed’. I know each person is a creator and exactly where they need to be right now. 

 By sharing this new map, they begin to see their own path and their vibrations soar.

The Map is Glimpsed

One Giant Step

On the Cutting Edge

Everyone is moving into the new paradigm’s vibrations and those on the cutting edge of consciousness: metaphysical healers, counselors and lightworkers; have an important role to play. To the extent and speed we let go of our attachment to the old wisdom, we can embrace the new paradigm and experience 5^th Dimensional energy.

  

The Changes Happening

Our DNA is changing. Our connection to our higher self is being redesigned. You may have strange aches and pains, odd occurrences in your life, big shifts and releases. All  presages change. Allow it. Physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually we are under construction. The neural pathways of intuition and self awareness are being downloaded and upgraded. For these new teachings, we must apply the enlightened tools of the 5^th Dimension: Love, Allowance and Compassion; for ourselves and for our 7 billion other-selves on Earth.

What To Do

I will listen to my intuition. I will allow new choices and new knowledge to arrive. I will trust they are perfect and in alignment with our quantum growth. Guidance will prepare me for new perspectives in my thinking and for release of attachment to old, familiar ways of being. I must let go.

We will be shown why and how we are more than just a human living in this space and time. Our multidimensional higher selves are instructing us as we enter 5D galactic consciousness.

Just wait. Be patient. It is already happening.

We are more than we think.