As bankruptcy looms, this Indigo child, 24 yr old man, faces the collapse of all his upstanding principles. He will have to think differently henceforth, a daunting perspective. The Osho Zen Tarot deck has some stunning insights. I came accros one that seemed appropos. I quote:
You are not accidental. Existence needs you. Without you something will be missing in existence and nobody can replace it. That's what gives you dignity, that the whole existence will miss you. The stars and sun and moon, the trees and birds and earth - everything in the universe will feel a small place is vacant which cannot be filled by anybody except you.
This gives you a tremendous joy, a fulfillment that you are related to existence, and existence cares for you. Once you are clean and clear, you can see tremendous love falling on you from all dimensions.Osho God is Dead: Now Zen is the Only Living Truth Chapter 1
INDIGO'S REPLY
I am going through some tough times, which I really don't want to be going through. I think my family still thinks I might be a little crazy because my brother called with some fancy labels for me and why I should go see a psychologist, I think they are concerned about the whole spiritual thing. I know by the Law of Attraction I must have attracted all these wrong things that are happening to me, yet by knowing that I feel even more worse because I don't understand why I have attracted all this to me. I really went through allot of hardships the last year, I thought after getting out of the hospital everything would be getting much better. I had a goal from a young age to be a self made millionaire by age 25, well my 25th birthday is July 1st and it looks like I will be celebrating my first bankruptcy. When it comes to business I am trying to get deals done, yet they all seem to be falling apart. I feel myself slipping back into a depression and I don't want to go there again. I want things to be better, I am just tired of my current situations.
WE'VE ALL BEEN THERE!
We've all been in that place of depression. That's because we're focused on the negative causes and thoughts that accompany depression. There is always light at the end of the tunnel. Take charge of your thinking and choose to think about something happy. Negative thinking gets you more depressed... it doesn't help. Positive thinking lets your mind breathe. You wouldn't make a 5 yr old stay in the punishment of constant negative thinking... low self worth, bad me, I'm wrong, I screwed up, I need to be punished. So don't do it to yourself!
MY ANSWER
Congratulations!!!! Your first bankruptcy. Now you are a man!!!
The only thing that is certain is change.... this means your stuck place right now will get unstuck. The depression will change into something else. You have no idea YET how freeing bankruptcy is. I know. we were both raised to honor our debts, etc, etc. Well... things change. Thank god/goddess. I feel if life had gone in the direction I was headed, I'd have missed the best parts....
You are sooooo young; just beginning... and you have an early chance to start over. If you think of this as a graduation from childhood, a rite of passage, you will see it in its truer perspective. Clear away the old cobwebs including self judgment.. that's a biggie. We both know you can. YOu are intelligent. Begin to acknowledge the good things.
You got a huge kick in the ass to move in a spiritual direction. Now you and the universe have cleared the playing field. It's all yours to begin to create what you want. YOu know the drill... what you focus on you get more of. Get through and past the bankruptcy. Go home to get new bearings, or not. Just start over like you were getting out of college. You're throwing off old shoes and clothes and parts of yourself that no longer serve your higher self that just came on line ... you're like the butterfly emerging out of its cocoon... Be tender with yourself, you're still a vulnerable infant in your new self.
Congratulations on your TRUE BIRTHDAY! Celebrate the way of Spirit!
Look at it as 'you had the party' (the visions in the hospital).
Now you have to do the work. (move thru changes of self and all that is and was you).
You are Indigo. Begin!
Love, light and joy to you on your having created a breath of fresh air and a restart to your life!
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